oh my...almost another month. no time or energy to do things, but things are going relatively well.
i'm locked up at home now cuz i just got my wisdom teeth pulled (3 of them) and my mouth is just a wreck. i have to wait 24 hours before i can brush or rinse with salt water...so if you thought my breath was bad before....

things are much better than last year. even though i'm working just as much and staying in late most days, at least i see progress. some kids are improving, and they see me as a guide, and they at least make the effort to be better students to my face. it's kind of scary thinking of myself as a role model. i mean, i was a horrible student in hs. but at least i had the background. and the confidence my parents gave me. with these guys, they're not as lost as the oakland kids, but they still just don't care.

i saw goodwill hunting this morning when i was all drugged up. it's kind of a similar situation. all this potential in all my kids (even myself sometimes) but it's just wasted. when you don't know what you want, you don't work for anything....

i finally remembered the 4 values i liked...preserverance, will, wisdom, and benevolance...there was another word that i liked more than benevolance, but i can't think of it now...

still never picked up scroll painting...maybe next summer?
oh well...

things have been going well though. imean, i'm not totally bummed. with only 5 hours of sleep, i'm tired, but at least i'm not completely hopeless and depressed like last year, which is about as close as i can get to being hapy for now..
peacers