man...so on friendster, one of my newer testimonials from a friend is about how injury prone i am. i would've blown that off and scoffed...but lately..i've just been really unlucky. and i've been taking it easy and barely exercising lately too! about 6 weeks ago, i mess up my knee. then 3 weeks ago i sprain my shoulder. and then last night, i sprain my ankle. DOOD. i'm not even training or working out!
just wondering...it's normal to not know what you want in life right? at least that's what i think...i mean, not all of us know what we want. or even what would make us happy. so we jsut go on wiht life, either trying to find what makes us happy, or keeping busy until happiness finds us. that's my take on it...one of my friends just quit her job cuz she wasn't happy with it. one of the things i like about my job is that it's renewed my hope with humanity. i'm still working too much (5 hours today, and i'm going in tomorrow too =(
but at least i know it won't ever be this hard again. and i can only get better. and i like my coworkers, and even most of my students....i guess that's all i need for now to keep me going
Sunday, September 14, 2003
so let's make it two days in a row. my jaw hasn't gotten any better. if anything, it looks a little worse, but that's prolly cuz i've been taking less ibuprofen. damn niners lost today, and all cuz of cedric wilson. all the moron had to do was run straight for the endzone, or fall down to save time. but nooooooooo...he decides to run backwards and to the side, killing more time and ending the game....damnit
well..i'm moving on to the neuro section in my anatomy class, the part i really like. i'm going in a different order than the last teacher did...i hope she didn't have a big reason for having her order. there's a lot on this stuff too. i could teach the rest of the semester on just this stuff
so a friend of mine gave me advice and told me to focus on doing what i want. at least that's how i took it. it's good advice. something i've heard countless times, and something i've told others countless times. i don't follow my own advice very well. if i only i knew what i wanted. my whole life is simply doing stuff that i dont' mind. i wish i had something that i wanted, then it'd be a piece of cake.
i've been watching some anime and reading more manga recently. when do i find the time? ha! the last hour before bed...so instead of getting 6 hours, i'm only getting 5. but i figure, i'd rather go to sleep slightly more relaxed and happy than not. so that's my excuse. and they got some good ideas in those things. in naruto, the main character is all about doing things to prove stuff to others. another character feels like he has no meaning in life, but when someone appreciates one of his traits, he makes his life revolve around that guy and serves him. it's like he'd rather at least be appreciated for that, even if he only became a pawn, than be a nothing.
kind like that old chinese question "would you rather be the tail of a lion, or the head of a rat". me, i've always chosen that latter....stubborn me...
