doood...k..so i have to go to work to get internet...ghettO. but i'll get that fixed soon.
been thinking a lot lately...going back and forth on my commitment to teaching and trying to decide what to do with my life.

then i was also thinking about all the things i could've done better are started on earlier when i was younger. i get really frustrated with myself on that sometimes, and i think it's reflected on how i treat my students, when i get frustrated with them for not trying or caring. i think i was worse than my average student in terms of productivity...

but now i finally have a break and time to think, and one thing i always think about it what i could do if i could go back in time and change my history. but recently, i started thinking about the things i WOULDN'T want to change, and i started thinking about the friendships i've made and the people i've met that put up with me. and going back in time suddenly doesn't seem so appealing.
so if i haven't sent any holiday cards to you (don't worry, it's not just you, i haven't sent ANY) or called you (again, my bad) it's not cuz i don't care. it's just that i'm uber lazy and still catching up with all the crap that i kept procrastinating all semester.

so in short, thanks everyone for putting up with me. my life isn't bad, it's just that i like to complain cuz it helps me vent. i mean...jeez...who goes around thinking about their elbow skin except for my students now?

happy holidays