we go through good days and bad...maybe i'm starting to enter one of the valleys of my emotional rollercoaster again. no matter what i go going in my life,i hit these times where i just feel totally bummed and alone. doesn't really have much to do with my students anymore...they're all pretty controllable. maybe it's just cuz i haven't gone out in so long. i never meet new people, and i've kinda hit this drag...well...only one way to fix that, course, i think i should wait until after my black belt test so i can actually concentrate on something for once.
anyways, my friend leslie was in the area from the east coast this weekend, and she convinced me to take friday off to go to kirkwood. didn't take much persuasion. of course, now i'm paying for it cuz it's saturday and i'm stuck in my classroom grading papers. it was an awesome day though, even hit a good mogul run on my board. props to any of you boarders who'll do moguls, it's the best feeling in the world..well, in between the head hits and the burning quads. i never took so many bad falls in one day. i usually only have 1 at the most in a day. i think i had 4 yesterday. of course, it didn't help that by the end of the day it was snowing so bad i only about 10 ft of vision.
well...things in my life are going fairly smoothly. sorry for the boring posts (if anyone actually reads this). no more super ghetto kids. no more cops and group home calls. no, it's just me and my bike, volleyball, and the occasional martial arts injury. i'd be taking pics of the places ivisit with my motorcycle, but of course, i'll have to wait a couple of months to be able to afford a camera =)
to all my friends who've stuck with me thru the years, thanks. it's time to keep up with my resolutions and kick my butt into gear
Thursday, January 29, 2004
man..what a daze...i'm taking tomorrow off to go to kirkwood with a friend, but i have SUCH a headache..and i think it's been building since yesterday
wednesday was a horrible day. i started out by riding my motorcycle across the baybridge at 6:30 in the morning cuz i was running late and couldn't afford to get stuck in traffic. i also happend to forget my school keys at home, so i had to constantly ask others to open doors for me. then i went back thru berkeley and some moron almost cuts me off in his car. (i guess that's to be expected though since i'm on a bike). and the one thing i dont' like about my bike is that it has not gas gauge, so i have to guesstimate how many more miles i can drive. well, there is a yellow warning light that comes on, but i have no idea how many more miles i'll have left. i mean, would you want to ever learn that by driving on the bay bridge and then running out of gas? aiyaa...
anyways..i'm rushing out of work, but i just felt like ranting...but now that i'm doing this, i dunno if i should. haha..i've never really googled someone before, but i met this person and one of my friends suggested it. funny. i feel so...dirty.
like a stalker. is it ok to google someone and look up stuff on them? it's like i'm compelled to know more about this chick, but then, when am i crossing the line that separates acceptable behavior from I'm-gonna-get-a-restraining-order-on-you-behavior?
