wow...it's been a while...thought i'd write here where no one ever goes anymore

but maybe someday i'll be able to look back at this and think about how young and naive and stupid i once was....hopefully at least...

things i would say to my closest friends but feel to weird about:

EC: i never say it, but i'm extremely happy for you. to me you represent all those who work hard without complaint. and soon you'll be able to enjoy the fruits of your labor. my only wish is a selfish one in that i hope your new life won't take you too far away so i can see you enjoy everything you will have.

MT: another friend that has moved away. i know you'd disagree with my feelings, but i've always seen you as a little brother. and although i know it's been hard for you to leave almost everythign you know, i've been secretly glad that you made that decision. although what you're going thru is hard, know that when you finish and come out, you'll be able to tackle anything that gets in your way.

CC: you've been one of my longest and best friends, and when I've needed to talk to someone, you've been there. You've been the sane, dependable companion that my at-times-turbulent life needed.

HW: sometimes i feel we share that same pessimistic/romaticized/jaded view of life. you have the balls and the fortitude to support yourself as well as the ones who depend on you that i highly admire.